14 February 2012

Hoping For Better Days

Hello everyone,

Well 2012 got off to exactly the start I'd hoped for. Early in the new year we found out we were expecting. Things could not be more perfect and exciting in our household, imagining life with a new addition.

Unfortunately things took a turn for the worse after 7 hours in the emergency department at hospital on Saturday and today has been our final confirmation that we lost our baby and have in fact already miscarried. This news was not unexpected with many days of physical pain and other symptoms. However seeing that empty space on the ultrasound was still heartbreaking.

At first I was tempted to run scared from the situation and not really want to try again for a while, but my strong desire to be a mother has helped us move past those fears and we are hoping to try again quickly and hopefully have a successful, healthy pregnancy soon. Of course it will be scary next time, worrying that the same thing will happen but we've just got to hope our bad luck is behind us.

So not exactly a happy, romantic valentines day for us. It isn't exactly a major celebration for my husband and I anyway, as it is my birthday in 2 days. Yep, 29 this week. Another occasion I don't really wish to celebrate right now however we will spend it with immediate family at dinner on Thursday night.

What has been amazing is the support from family, friends and everyone really. Even the many people who have no idea what we have been going through have been full of kind words and support. Some  may have guessed what happened, but others simply offer words of condolence without needing to know why. We are blessed to have so many wonderful people in our lives!

Now is the time when we pick ourselves up, brush ourselves off and focus on those better days ahead and hope for that day when we get to hold a precious little person in our arms...

xo

9 comments:

Rachael Funnell said...

HEY Holly!
SO SO sorry to hear about your loss.....
Sorry I had NO idea this was going on!! BUT I am blonde!! SO! Unless is is Spelt out to me I sometimes miss things!!!
Wishing you the VERY best for 2012 ♥

donna said...

I can only imagine what you are going through at the moment Hun. Big hugs for both you and Simon
D xxx

Dale Tiernan said...

So sorry to hear of your news Holly. My brother's Fiance has just experienced something very similar. All the best for trying again and being successful soon and happy birthday for 2 days time. hugs

Jasmine S said...

I am deeply sorry for your loss Holly. I can only imagine the heartache but you sound so strong and positive and I think that is exactly what you need and I believe that sort of attitude will certainly help you create your dream.
And HIP HIP HOORAY. I hope you have an awesome Birthday. Enjoy your last year as a 20 something. I am turning 39 in April so I will enjoy my last year then as a 30 something....lol.

Lizzyc said...

oh Holly i am so sad to read this post, and i do sent you my love as a scrapper and blogger friend, and i hope you look after yourself and be kinder than usual as you deal with this very sad loss to you and your hubby... hugs to you.... take care...

Josie Dean said...

Holly, sending heaps of hugs to you and Simon! We are always here for a chat! Xxx

Carolyn said...

Big hugs Holly, my heart is breaking for you reading this. But you are being such an inspiration picking yourself up and thrusting forward. My hopes is your dream of a healthy pregnancy are soon on the horizon for you and your hubby. I am sure many of us will be sending positive vibes your way. Take care xo

Alanna said...

So sorry to hear of your loss Holly. I can only imagine how heartbreaking it must be for both you and Simon. Fingers crossed good luck comes to you both soon and you hold a little bub in your arms in the near future.

Sandie Edwards said...

Holly, I was so heartbroken to read your news.. you are in my thoughts. x

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